hmmm...a weird but familiar feelin overwhelmed syl today...was celebrating P's bdae with her bf, D, S n Z...Z left early cus she didnt like to go ktv as she seldom sing chinese songs...e 1st 'weird but familiar feelin' is her enthusiasm towards celebrating P's bdae...its been awhile since i'm in touch with such warm enthusiasm...feels great to see e cousins tgt celebratin...dunno how P feel abit it...
had an amazin game of pool with D n P's bf...realise i play better by gut feelin then to go precise with aiming n stuff...D commented tt instead learnin how to win e game e normal way...i choose to learn how to guard, snook n distract e opponent...hee am i tt scheming? hmmm...an old friend use to say i'm v scheming...
had supper with D, S, P n her bf...tt's whn e 2nd 'weird but familiar feelin' came...we sat in a manner tt i'm in e middle...lookin at them sharing their fd n talkin to one another made me feel e sudden emptiness...not lonely but empty...lookin at how they took care of their gf made me question my capability as a bf...
i wish i've grown up faster...not for myself but for her...
